FRESH.
Sunday, April 25, 20108:35 PM
Okay so I decided to start FRESH. It's sunday night and i had a really good weekend with my father, his wife, and my grandma. Gosh i love them so much. Seeing them makes me so happy and i feel like i have absolutley everything i need. I was with my younger sister and my younger brother and we had a blast. Friday afternoon around 6, my daddy picked us up and once we got home they surprised my sister with a cake and balloons along with birthday cards and her gift(:. It was a lot of fun and the cake was super good ... I still have the taste in my mouth lol. And so later on we spent the rest of the night in the living room playing cards and we had so much fun but then obviously sleepy time came and everyone knocked out lol. The next day, saturday, was even better. We woke up pretty early, ate breakfast and packed a few things and then went to the park. We played so much and i rode my electric scooter that i haven't even touched since the 7th grade SOOO much fun and i also fell asleep on the green grass it felt so nice. It was so sunny and hot out with a really nice spring breeze. It was just one of those amazing days. We got home pretty late and then watched "Norbit". Old, but hilarious movie. GO SEE IT NOW. lmao. Then today, sunday we woke up early and went to a Diner. The food was so good and i wasn't hungry again for about another 3 hours lol. That food was just oh my god. lol but obviously later on, i ate again and my father's wife cooked. I ate so much that i really can't eat until tomorrow unless i'm still too full xD lmao. Today i just relaxed, listened to music, played cards and everything. Then it was time to go back to my mom's house, where i really live at. So we did a little prayer before we left and we got where i am now. So far i'm just so calm. I missed my mom. I know drama will go down this whole week, weekend, and next week because well were going to stay here a while before going back to dad's which is every 2 weeks sucks huh? But that's just the way it goes. Drama why? Oh because there always is. My step-dad doesn't like my sister and I. Do i care? Of course i'm not going to lie. But that isn't my main concern here. I have more important things to worry about. He's so confusing. It's always tough to have a new step-dad and everything... But right now it's just tough getting older. I'm 17 now and everything was full of color way back then.. now things are a little harder and just losing color. It really is hard growing up. I used to have so much ambition. This year is one of my most important years and i'm messing up already. I lost desire and i have very little time to do better and get my average up in school. I just stopped studying, caring and i just don't know what went wrong. I do believe i can do it though, i just have to push harder and i'll do it. Parents say we have nothing to stress about, but that is a lie. Of course were going to stress and we have many reasons as to why. Just because we may have "everything" doesn't mean anything... I appreciate everything they have done but it's still hard being a teen now. Next year i'll be 18... more responsibilities :|. I'm growing up so fast and seasons are changing so quickly. I just don't feel all that happy living here. I may have "everything" but happiness. I'm always so locked up i need to breathe and i feel like my whole childhood just never happened. Childhood meaning my teen years. I don't care much for chilling with my friends, i just want to go outside for a walk BREATHE. Even if it's with my family. I just need to get out. It's so unhealthy staying in a box for hours. It makes me sick. Soon i'll be 18 and i make my own decisions. & My first one is to move out. I'm going to move in with my father i think it's best for me. (:
Well i'm exhausted. Peaceeee
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